Monday, February 17, 2014

And thus the door clung in..

The guy lazily escalated three floors on the staircase when he knew the overburdened elevator would take a good 5 minutes to take him to his desk. As he made his way to the ground floor for his usual post-lunch smoke, he left his lunch box upstairs in the pantry. He asked his colleague to take it down to his desk. So he could directly go down for his smoke. 

He was right at the door that opened him to his floor when he realized he forgot his ID card that upon a wipe would let him in. He haughtily pushed the door, turned his head away from it in resentment. It was then his ears caught the pleasant creaking sound of the door opening. The door's swipe machine didn't work & it was like any other door then; not a door that led to corporate penitentiary anymore. 

Days passed & his smoke breaks increased - both in count & duration. The swipe machine fail made the door a pathway to his liberty. Liberation from imposed confinement of corporate etiquette. He jollily swung it in & out to make his way in & out. 

It was a bleak day when sun was lazily hiding behind the unseen curtains. Dusk was setting its scene. He swayed off the hovering mosquitoes over his head while he crushed his cigarette under his left foot. He made his way back to his desk and in habit, he pushed in the door without swiping. It didn't open. Through the glass that was encapsulated in the wooden borders of the door, he saw a carpenter holding a wired drilling machine in a brandished way. He realized that the swipe machine was fine & he had to take out his ID card from his wallet.

He swiped it, the door clung open & he trudged to his desk in melancholy. 

Monday, February 10, 2014

Tryin' to hang in there.

I have seen people letting people slip away from their clutches. When the slipped blamed the inertia towards personal success, my heart went with the defeated. I cursed on behalf of the defeated for bad timing they were subjected to.

When this thing comfortably slipped away from the folds of my brain almost 3 years ago, I suddenly recollected it the other day at noontime when I saw one of the 'defeated' drive past me on his bike. Everything came back in a frenzy.

Today I sit here with this stupid phone in my hand waiting for a response from her. I just realized how I have calmed down. In a way I feel lucky: to let myself grow with the relationship. To evolve as a person while evolving as a part of 'us'. I zero it down to this: who just don't grow old with their relations will encounter problems.

Three years ago, I used to wait for her reply with petulance. I now wait in a hushed way. Million things flash across my mind but they successfully fail to affect the existence. The knowledge that any wrong channeled emotions redirected at a wrong person might just get it all wrong - keeps me calm.

If they don't grow up with it, they proved they will perish. I am just trying to hang in there.