Probably the better 'me' ?!

This one,rather coming out of me with no anticipations from my contrary side as expected.Things, used to be on my "wish list" were materialistic like pods,wee hour coffees,night outs,booze and all.Everything is bound to change in due course of time and by the time,i settle down in my cozy sofa to jot down this on a piece of paper without thinking ,what brand pen am I using to jot this down.I changed.Probably,turned into a man,whateva you call it as.I used to wonder about my dad,how this man possess no interest towards flashy colours,branded ties and staying in luxury suites? I probably thought that he has got no taste of life.The art of living,you call it as.

The idea of an eternal feeling of looking at this mechanical world with a glimpse of art struck me when I was going through The Hindu,today when Osho's section of Art of living.As my included constraint of my new 'me',I patiently had gone through the entire column and by the time I finished it,the only person who remained in my head is my dad,again! Exactly! Since then,I gave it shot of thinking and here I am,settled down with a greater height of determination to write of what I have been thinking ,lately.

Its still a hard fact for me to digest.Past couple of months brought drastic changes in me.Of course,desirable.Just two whole months.The 'me',I expected to appear somewhere around 5-10 years down the lane,started to visit my life pretty often! Its not that I am getting older,I am getting elder.I always used to think about the incidents(rather,call them accidents!) happened and used to introspect myself,What I could have done if it happens once again? Or else,if its destined to happen now,How would I react to the situation?? I always to find a better answer for that and luckily,I used to appreciate myself for believing in the concept of growing daily.In fact,I have grown daily!

One thing is clear for me now.I stopped growing.And I am not at all unhappy for that.The things which happened to me in the past two months made me a man,at least I hopefully guess.

I started looking at people in a broader sense.I am real need of conversations and I am fortunate enough.I am being pretty successful in finding conversations(Thanks to Kaushik,Sandy and Sindhu) .

Conversations :

@ Kaushik,Sandy :: Kudos to both the brilliant bastards..!!They made forget time even while sitting under hot sun for 3 hours having hot tea(ufff..).For the first time in my life,I found my self gone dumb,restricting myself to a corner and listening to two bastards for 3 hours ,without uttering even a single word. Thats their sheer brilliance!!

@ Sindu :: after being like a so called "friend" on FB for somewhere around 10 months,I started to find myself getting into a conversation with her,lately.She's got an other side,probably seldom know it!(Shikhara,you are damn right baby,She's got some unexposed brilliance in her)and for this , Kudos to my guitar..!!

Thats it! conversations,people,chai aur Zindagi.Aur kya hona? I lost my interest towards childhood fantasies and no wonder,If i turn out into an "Urban Buddha" (thanks Adi,for coining that) going places in search of Zindagi..!!

Thats it for now! Khuda hafeez!

With regards

'probably the better "me" '